Why am i still talking about race?

You will waste your life if you wait for some boy to validate your feelings and make you feel okay with you. You have to love yourself for who you are and no boy is going to ever fill that void for you. Its got to come from within. Now that may mean that you need to talk to a therapist to address how to deal with the issues you have regarding your color. But regardless of what it takes you have to learn how to love you and how to make yourself feel beautiful no matter what your family or friends may say. Good luck, and I hope this helps.